Idon'tKnow.

Evening people (: Woke up around 12pm, than my brother, and his girlfriend and i decided to go down and eat, but my brother think, why not just order mac, so yeah we order mac, wa just so awesome:) hehe,

Order:

MacSpicy meal - Mine ( UP SIZE)

Double Mac Grill Meal - Miaooy Jiejie( UP SIZE)

Fillet O fish - Brother ( UP SIZE)

20 Piece Nugget x2 -Our's and my big brother

A total of $42.75

*Brother ( Woah, like that order order also have $42.75?) LOL!

Well, so after you see what we order normal human will say me

* No wonder she's so fat* ( Use to it)

And i know whatever people say, they will still think the reason i'm fat is eat,

i'm not trying to cover up things for myself but true.

When i'm young, i'm already plus size, and my friend and family say that i have big bone, so i'll look even plus size with thoughs fats on, so yeah, i'm trying to slim as much as i can, so yeap.

I think some of you out there will think, " Ahya, you can say whatever you want, but who knows whether it's true anot" Well you can ask Teng *( Pppeanutbutter she know.)

I can't stop whoever thinking, and i'll have been living in my life with all hurting words, i don't like it, but what can i do but accept it? :) My friends or tell me that, "your fat but atleast you know how to dress up yourself, and i don't look ugly, i'm pretty",

what i need is just to slim down, and i need to to do it. When i heard this i do have some confident in myself, but once i look at myself in the mirror and i start to ask myself, " Where the hell do i get that ' Some confident' after looking at myself in the mirror." hmmm, i start to be emotionally, i know i shouldn't be so not confident, but if i put too much confident on myself, i just wonder, what more hurting words will come on me, i just know that, if i even try i will sucess so i shall try.

Just now i was wondering, what type of people are my friends, I afraid one day just that one day everything changed in a sudden, everyone changed my friends attitude totally like plastic girls how? i really don't know, and sometime i wonder do my friend even treat me a real friend or just an " Time spender friend" But seriously, i don't like it, i hate it, and some people, just when sometime they need an ear they find me, I'm glad that they actually choose me to share with, but i appreciate it enough if you don't tell me that, because you can't find any friends to share than you remember me, i'll be very disappointed, really, but if you choose me because it's just like sister heart talking, i'll be more happy and glad you choose me to share your problems with,

and i'll try my very best to comfort a friend like *teng , I'm a kind of people who don't know how to use words to comfort them, cause i was thinking since i don't know, my as well just listen, will be much more better than putting salt on the scar so yeah, and i'm actually quite happy that, Teng made time for me and we went out times and times, she listen to me whenever i need someone, she's just an awesome friend, and i do like to share things with her. :)